To the End of Another Chapter

November 4, 2015 

       It's been a month and six days since I last posted. Sorry my fellow readers! I've been busy with college applications, tests, and surgery. Yup, you read it right, surgery (this was the thing I was referring to back in my Oct. 15 post). I'm still recovering at the moment, but I'm getting better each day! It's going to take about a month more, but I got this! I will be okay. No need to worry! I'll be back on my blog soon enough. I apologize for not notifying you guys sooner. It's been a crazy month in November. Deadlines, decisions, and choices. Plus school. And of course, surgery. There was a lot to deal with this past month. 

       BUT December has started on a good note! I got accepted to CSUF! My first college acceptance. I was so excited, I didn't believe what I was reading. I read it to my dad to check, and then I showed it to my sister as well. It felt so surreal. I felt as if a burden has been lifted off of me. Getting accepted to at least one college. Check. I'm going to college! It was one of the nicest little gifts to receive during this hard time. 

       Hopefully everyone is starting December on the right note as well! Nineteen more days til Christmas. Twenty-five more days til the very end of the month. Meaning one thing: 2016. Ahhh! Excited for the new year, but it's crazy how fast time is going. Enjoy the rest of 2015 everyone!

Happy Halloween

        Happy Halloween everyone!! Yesterday I went to my school's Haunted Auditorium and I screamed throughout most of it. It was so fun! My very first and last one I'll attend in my high school career. Another memory I can add to my senior year I would not forget. I finally got to be brave and go through it. I was scared even though I walked through it when I was in my tech class. Little things scare me. It was definitely worth it to go. Have a great Halloween! Dress up and be safe! Have fun on this very last day of October. This month went by fast, and it'll be January before we know it. Take it easy, don't rush, and enjoy every moment.

Reality Check

       Yesterday, came out of my house to see this beauty staring right back at me. The sky looked so fake. It looked like a piece of artwork. It felt as if I was inside a painting as I turned around to see the sky, the sky was entirely made of fake looking clouds. The sky may seem fake, but it was most definitely not fake. Sometimes whether you like it or not, you got to face reality. You can't hide behind a teddy bear anymore and face it. That's what I had to do yesterday. I had to face knowing I had to do something very important that's coming up real soon. It's something I don't want to do, but if I want to be better, to be pain free, I must do it. More on that in another post. I just want to say, sometimes we need real life to hit us back to earth to see we can't always live in fantasy, in dream state any longer. It's when the fake looking clouds in the sky turns into gray dark clouds that poured rain onto earth for probably less than five minutes yesterday. We must face reality. No matter how hard it may be to take in. 

       I hope everyone had a good National Dessert Day yesterday! Happy National Grouch Day. Only be grouchy for this one day. Put on a smile for all the other days. Smiling makes a person happier. 

       Thank you to all the readers out there who kept up with my blog. This is my 100th post, and I'm really excited to keep posting and reaching my other 100s posts in the future. Thank you to all of you who followed my journeys throughout the years and my little life reflecting posts. You guys mean the world to me. Thank you! (: 

Mid Autumn Festival

       Happy Mid Autumn Festival everyone! Today is the super moon lunar eclipse. I didn't get to see it red though, but I have to say the moon does look pretty cool tonight. Hope everyone had a good moon gazing!! Have a good week folks. 

Conflicted

Senior year... Everyone says it flies by... It does. But no one said it was going to be one of the hardest years in a person's high school career. So many decisions to make, so many opportunity costs, so many deadlines, so many projects a person wants to do before high school ends, so many things going on, so many ideas and tasks in someone's head. The list goes on. There's so many things to do, but so little time. Stressing over everything, even the littlest things. The only things that get me through this year so far are: 

1.) Music. I've been listening to High School Musical songs. Yes. I'm weird, but the old songs are probably the best songs a person can find comfort in. Those are the songs a person growing up listened to. Listening to HSM songs suits this time perfectly because I'm a senior who just wants things to slow down. I listen to Tyler Ward's music lately as well and Tiptoe by Imagine Dragons. All very good songs. I just need some escape tunnel from school and life in general. 

2.)  Blogging. There are so many times I have the urge to blog. To write how I feel at the moment. But there's so much to say sometimes. I'll be on and off on blogging for the next two months because of.. college applications. BUT don't worry. I'll come back for my readers and followers. Love you guys!

3.) Reading quotes on Google+. I stopped for a while, but I picked up my old habit since last year again today. Feels good to read some encouraging words or quotes that relate to oneself at the moment. But too much makes a person think too much. I have to resist myself from reading too many. Or else I would overthink and overthinking is my specialty.

4.) Talking to friends. It's always nice to be able to share one's thoughts, feelings, stories, and problems with people who understand and care. Don't bottle all of it inside. It's not healthy for anyone.Ever.

5.) Pause and just reflect. Sometimes we just need to stop and let ourselves really soak up what's happening as of now to know where we are. It's scary how fast time goes by. Before I know it, it'll be 2016. I write in a journal to reflect my day at night. It doesn't have to be always, but it's nice to think about how my day went and see what I still need to work on or want to work on. 

6.) Hugging my gray bear. I'm a child at heart. I need my loving huggable bear from time to time. It helps me. It makes me feel less alone and comforted. 

7.) Watching movies or shows. Yes! Escape reality. What better to do that than to watch movies and shows?!? The best! 

8.) Sleep and eat. Two of my favorite things. Sleep. The thing that allows me to forget things for just a bit. Eat. What I do when I need comfort, when I am sad, when I am happy, when I am in every emotion and mood out there. My two ways to escape for a bit. 

9.) Walks and showers. These are the best ways to just think and look at life. It can clear a person's mind or make it even more conflicted with all the decisions in life.

No matter what I do, or what you may do if you are conflicted as well, just know take it a day at a time. Take it easy. Time may slip through our fingers, but if you rush everything or panick through life, you won't enjoy anything and miss out on a whole lot more than you think. Being conflicted is part of life. Senior year may be a huge roller coaster, but I know I'll come out of it just fine. Real soon.